The to do list & Existentialism
I've written a pretty lengthy poem called, "Anatomy of Anxiety". It delves deep into my experience with anxiety, how it makes me feel and my hopes for living a fruitful life after finally facing it after many years. I'll be publishing it verse by verse over the next few weeks on this blog. Below is the next two parts - "The to-do list & Existentialism".
Anatomy of Anxiety Table of Contents:
3. The to-do List & Existentialism
4. Being nicer to Myself & A Force to be Reckoned With
Theres, of course, a lot that this doesn't cover. If you every want to talk more about your relationship with anxiety, please e-mail me.
The to do list
I want to go back to the place where I trust myself to get through my to-do list without obsessing over it. I
want to be in a mental space not consumed by
the to-do list.
I am more than the to-do list.
But I live with you, and you don’t
create a safe space for me
you heighten my anxiety you’ve made myself an
taken so much away from me.
I don’t remember what its like to
be happy with where I am in life.
I don’t remember what it’s life to
not be negatively motivated by my works and accomplishments.
what you see as a win I see as a loss
and honestly I’m at a loss
Because of you.
When did I last take a a break?
Could you tell me?
You couldn’t, because you won’t let me.